I had a friend in high school, my best friend from church, who I was really close with. We joked around a lot and there were a lot of things he did that made me think if he was interested in me, like grab my butt, grab my other places, sleep on my lap/shoulder/etc. However, he was straight. I know, a lot of people mess around and do all kinds of stuff and are straight but he brought it to a level where you couldn’t ignore the fact that he might not be totally straight.
I’ve woken up to him spooning me when we shared a bed during a camping trip, and lets just say he must of been having some pretty exciting dreams (assuming he was actually asleep) because he was pretty… aroused. lol.
To this day, i kind of regret not doing anything about it. I don’t want to say that i would have thrown myself on him, but like come out to him. To see what he does or says… but at the same time i was afraid. Afraid that once I told him, the friendship that I valued so much would just fall apart. So I kept my mouth shut and now i’ll never know.
You know how much I liked him? I’ll give you a hint… I still remember the song that was on his Myspace profile when I added him as a friend after we first met. Back in 2006. The song was Brink Of Disaster by Mae. To this day, that song just reminds me of him and all those little things that happened between us.
One event in particular.. that same night i woke up to him spooning me, before we had gone to sleep.. we were laying there talking for a while. Everyone else in the room had fallen asleep and it was just us two awake. Towards the end of our conversation we both stopped talking and he just exhales and says “…. I wish you were a girl." and rolls over without a word after that and goes to sleep.
What?? “I wish you were a girl.” ?? Who says that? I was so confused, like, why? What are you trying to say? At that moment a door opened where I could have pursued further into it and that was my opportunity to fish out the answers I wanted because he had already let his guard down by making that statement. But I didn’t. I was too scared, and I just went to sleep.
I want to be less creepy plz. kthxbai
I needed to somehow bookmark these and it wouldn’t let me “like” the post. so please excuse the reblog…. lol
Everyone went somewhere for the holiday lol 😒 looks like I’m off on a lonesome adventure
pros to dating me:
- i’ll actually respond to ur text
- u can literally kiss me whenever u want (esp random neck kisses like yes please)
- we can hold hands
- butt touches
- cuddles? ? ? yes good
- i’ll play with your hair or vise versa
- u don’t have to worry about me liking other people bc i’m annoyed by almost everyone